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Review: A Death in Her Hands, by Ottessa Moshfegh

I’d forgotten how I first felt about My Year of Rest and Relaxation when I finally read it last spring. Eileen had been on my hope-to-get-to-but-failed list a few years before that and I had been really looking forward to My Year. Then, around the time I found myself a few chapters in, I couldn’t help but feel my head was all in the wrong place to appreciate that book. Finally, probably 200 pages in, I captured the thread, went back to the beginning and found it to be thoroughly engrossing all the way to the end. I still think about it and will reread it one day.

Beginning Death in Her Hands was much the same experience. I got through a hundred pages or so, disliking the narrator, disliking the voice, disliking nearly everything about it, when suddenly it just clicked, and yes, once again, I flipped back to the beginning and started over.

I have spent quite a bit of time wondering what it was I found so off-putting about My Year – yes, I wouldn’t mind giving up reading about privileged young people, please; yes, I worry that the patriarchy has dented my brain into one that wants female authors, female narrators, female characters, to be somehow immediately likable (I do think I’m winning) – but it is something else.

Ottessa Moshfegh’s characters seem, on first glance, to lack the depth to be interesting or worthy of compassion. But then, as the story begins to unfold, a realization creeps in that despite all the things that are difficult to like, despite their deep flaws and how completely unreliable they are, the things they are up to are also utterly compelling. It’s a slow burn for me, and I guess takes me a while to get there.

So what is this book? Is it a murder mystery, a twist on the “cozy whodunit”, told by a narrator who creates something like one out of the clues she discovers (in some cases, perhaps) or conjures out of her imagination (and frankly the line is unclear between the two activities)? Is it the story of an elderly woman going out of her mind after a winter’s isolation in the country following her overbearing husband’s death? You know, provided any of that stuff is real?

Much of this novel seemed to speak most directly to the part of my brain that is currently engaged in trying to figure out what it is a writer does when creating fiction, or perhaps it is more accurate to say, is noticing what it feels like to create fiction. I’ve been writing consistently since last fall after a break of many years, am on my second manuscript (the first one finished and without enough merit to make it past the first draft stage), so believe me when I say I couldn’t help but occasionally sense a similarity in the progressively claustrophobic, increasingly hopeless narrative Vesta builds into the world around her. You begin with anything in the world being possible. You end forced to kill your dog. (Again, maybe.)

About Death in Her Hands I would say the same thing as My Year of Rest and Relaxation – I’ve never connected so well with a book that I couldn’t help but suspect I didn’t like during most, or at least some, of the reading. I’ve recommended My Year to plenty of friends and have no doubt I’ll do the same with Death in Her Hands. But I have to acknowledge that I own things similar to the uncomfortable, unpleasant but entirely familiar, emotions this book dredges up in me. Remarkable, disquieting stuff.

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Review: Hex, A Novel by Rebecca Dinerstein Knight

In 2019, I fell in love with a bunch of books that featured brilliant, intense, off-kilter female narrators. Books like The Seas, by Samantha Hunt, The First Bad Man, by Miranda July, Ottessa Moshfegh’s My Year of Rest and Relaxation, and, to some extent, a classic I read for the first time that year: We Have Always Lived in the Castle by Shirley Jackson.

I found the voices of these novels almost absurdly exciting, especially The First Bad Man. Hex scratched the exact same itch. Nell Barber is our clever, strange and hilarious narrator. This is the opening of the novel, but I think you could pull any one other paragraph out and get precisely the right idea of what this book is up to:

“I am a woman who wakes up hungry. Tom touched only coffee till noon. You do what you’re capable of at some point, so Tom and I left each other. I wanted breakfast, he wanted liberty, and who could blame either of us. I live alone now in a large rancid blown-out loft in outer Red Hook, where I pad around the soft wood floors like a toddler: I’ve taken my pants off, my rings, earrings, it is quiet and bright, I haven’t gotten any lamps, I can hardly move, I’m drunk and I take a probiotic. My name is Nell Barber. I’m five foot five and 130 pounds which is not in any way remarkable. My daddy was a nice Jewish boy who married a nice Christian girl and raised me in Kansas and got on with it. Neither of them observed anything ever again. I was born observant. They gave me the original, fearful, organized minds of their childhoods and no religion of my own to honor. I suppose I turned from the celestial to the dirt. I study plants and I live in order.”

Densely brilliant, the novel tells the story of Nell and the circle of people around her who swap partners, fall in and out of love with one another and is, at its heart, a declaration of Nell’s own love, perhaps obsessive, perhaps unbalanced, (and, just perhaps, sarcastic? sardonic?) for her former PhD thesis supervisor to whom the book is loosely addressed.

The biggest loss is you: my chime, my floorboard. You are my night milk. You are my unison. You believe in the periodic table. Your book sold eight thousand copies in its first week. Columbia will separate you from the Simons case and nurture your celebrity. For five years I have been your smaller self, your near-peer, your sane challenger, your favorite. For five years I’ve trailed you as you approached success. Then Rachel reached for the rat poison and Whole Thing reached its readers and my room lost its pillars in one coordinated catastrophe and neatly fell down. You and Tom have both conclusively shaken me. Look, Joan, I’m shaking.

There isn’t a single dull moment, the book simply rockets along and I can’t tell you how many times I had to stop reading while laughing, not over directly comic scenes, though there are many of those, but over Dinerstein Knight’s surprising turns of phrase and jumps in thought.

Really, a terrific, rollicking read. The kind of book that made me want to slow down and really savour what the author was up to, but I just couldn’t bring myself to interrupt the ride. Already looking forward to picking this book up again one day.

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Review: Inconvenient Daughter: A Novel by Lauren J. Sharkey

My rule is not to write reviews of works that I can’t wholeheartedly recommend, and I have gone back and forth on whether to publish anything about Inconvenient Daughter: A Novel, by Lauren J. Sharkey. But, the things I like about this book, I like so much, that I’ve decided to discuss it.

Inconvenient Daughter is one of the most raw novels I’ve ever read, and it feels very much like a thinly-veiled memoir. At times I found myself wishing that one of the author’s editors would get in there and do their job because the writing is extremely unpolished to say the least, but in other ways, I love the book for being such a pure expression of teen-aged angst and uncertainty. Think of the squirmingly uncomfortable feelings you’d get reading a teen-aged girl’s diary and you have the tone right there.

Rowan is the Inconvenient Daughter of the title, a girl of Korean descent who is adopted into a white family as a baby. The book alternates between scenes of Rowan as a little girl, experiencing loss and hurt by feelings of not fitting in with the people around her and dealing with the racist attitudes of people around her at school and the world at large, counterpointed by painfully raw scenes of a young adult Rowan dealing with awakening sexual identity, the trauma of sexual assault, awful boyfriends, and dangerous, empty sex with strangers.

My heart bled most for the underlying thread of Rowan’s loneliness which runs through every word. She turns to no one for help with her problems through her childhood and adolescence until finally she is forced to acknowledge she cannot continue the way she is going and finds herself opening up somewhat – or at least acknowledging some of her self-destructive behaviour – to a team of sexual assault workers. Her (adoptive) parents love her, she genuinely seems to believe that, yet she never considers going to them for help.

The novel captures perfectly a teenager’s self-involved inability to have any empathy for others, as well as the accompanying inability to have any (much-needed) compassion for themselves.

I found the writing to be uneven, and there were moments that made me cringe – like a scene in grade school when Rowan’s “specialness” is equated with being a “retard”. I almost put the book down at that point.

However, the book shines overall with authenticity and it is a compellingly-told story of a troubled teen and young adult coming to terms with who she is in the world. I look forward to reading future work by Ms. Sharkey.

New Books for June 2020

I finally, finally, feel back in the swing of things, reading-wise, sort of. When the quarantine started even writing was tough, and it took me until early May to get that going reliably again. I have read a few books, and I have a few reviews in the works, but a load of new books just hit my shelves that I’m really excited about.

First off, Death in Her Hands, by Ottessa Moshfegh.

Book cover for Ottessa Moshfegh's novel Death in Her Hands

I had a short window in 2019 when I read both Moshfegh’s My Year of Rest and Relaxation and the short story The Metal Bowl, by Miranda July and a new area for fiction was blown out in my mind. Since then I’ve read July’s The First Bad Man and I’ve been waiting for Death in Her Hands almost more than anything else this year (possibly a tie with David Mitchell’s Utopia Avenue, but, come on, David Mitchell).

But a bunch of other goodies are out as well. Here’s a few I’m definitely reading and considering reviewing:

Inconvenient Daughter, by Lauren J. Sharkey

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The Taste of Sugar by Marisel Vera

Book cover, The Taste of Sugar by Marisel Vera

The Jane Austen Society, by Natalie Jenner (this one comes very highly recommended by my writing accountability buddy / jailer, Brenna Evans)

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The Lightness by Emily Temple

Book cover of Emily Temple's The Lightness: A Novel
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Parakeet by Marie-Helene Bertino

Book cover for the Parakeet: A Novel by Marie-Helene Bertino

These books aren’t going to read themselves, so I’ll leave it at that for today. Happy reading!

Review: Catherine House, Elisabeth Thomas

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The students at Catherine House consider themselves lucky to be offered free tuition to an elite college. So the cost – giving up all connection to the outside world for the three years they will spend there – doesn’t seem a terrible trade off, and for the main character Ines, who is running from her own trauma, it is even welcomed.

School starts and many of the students seem content to stay drunk on school-sanctioned alcohol and sleep around with one another. Before long, though, a school ritual, (is it a boosted meditation or mind control?) has everyone, including Ines, onto a more scholarly track.

The story is electric with the thrum of dark gothic energy and shifts in dreamy sequence through Ines’ three years. She sometimes finds herself pulled down into the current of school life, only to emerge periodically from the haze desperate to uncover the mystery of what Catherine House is really all about. The telling is foggy and shifting, leaving the reader as distracted by the friendships and studies, parties and intrigue, as Ines herself is until the end brings a reckoning we know must come.

Ines’ driving distrust of authority causes her to put herself in danger to uncover the house’s secrets but Thomas has kept the building of her story gauzy enough to contain some real surprises. Overall, an enjoyable read.

Review: The Witch Elm, Tana French

I had initially checked this book out of my local library, picked it up and put it right back down. Privileged white dude living a charmed existence. No thank you. But I must have kept mixing this book up with something else, and I ended up buying the ebook.

The world needs less privileged white dudes, the literary world could probably due to leave them out for a generation or two as well. Anyhow, I don’t mean that so much on a purely political level, I genuinely just cringe when I encounter them. There are plenty of other folks happy enough to make small talk with them, I suppose, I would just rather make small talk with someone else at a party.

Having said that, I am glad I read this book. But I did stay up late to finish it so that it didn’t eat into more than one day of my life.

I get that the writer was deliberately playing with the privileged white dude and in fact, he wins in the end due to the fact that he’s lost some of the trappings of the privileged white dude, but, still. Like I said, for me, there are more interesting folk at the party.

I will say, I was mightily impressed by the structure of this book, and French is obviously a writer whose technical tools are prodigious. There is a sense that the novel is divided into blocks, this is what is happening now, here is a wrench the irrevocably changes things, so that this is what is happening now. Perfect timing, executed decisively, intelligently, and with sophistication and it made putting the book down that much harder.

 

 

 

Review: Alice Munro The Moons of Jupiter

Alice Munro. Yeah, so I had come across a story of hers here and there. Terrific. As good as they come. What is it with me and short stories? I love them. Appreciate them. Put off reading them.

So now I’m finally sitting down to The Moons of Jupiter, in its entirety and starting with “The Chaddeleys and The Flemings: 1. Connections”, and right away the narrator’s aunts are hogging up the couch, boisterous and bouncing and generally making it difficult to read, which I really want to do, having fallen in love with the writing right from this paragraph:

“Their bosoms were heavy and intimidating— a single, armored bundle—and their stomachs and behinds full and corseted as those of any married woman. In those days it seemed to be the thing for women’s bodies to swell and ripen to a good size twenty, if they were getting anything out of life at all; then, according to class and aspirations, they would either sag and loosen, go wobbly as custard under pale print dresses and damp aprons, or be girded into shapes whose firm curves and proud slopes had nothing to do with sex, everything to do with rights and power.”

The Aunts here are fiercely alive, and remind me of some women I’ve met, but never on the pages of a book. My Aunt Donna, recently passed, who happily bullied my mother to get over her fear of driving on the 401, travelling without my father, to Vegas, to see Elvis, of course, to demand her weekly night out with the girls, to bingo, even if it meant delivering my sister and I in the cubby of the back of Donna’s Corvette to my father, working late. (Donna: “Get in kids”. Me, in my head: “But there are no seats…”)

My Aunt Val. Built as described above, with enormous breasts and incredibly wide thighs, guaranteed to spend the entire family picnic weekend in a strapless bathing suit, forcing even the most reticent of us into the games she seemed to have spent the rest of the year developing. Egg tosses, donut-on-a-string eating contests (no mini-donuts here, full-sized and jelly-filled), water balloon under-the-chin partnered extravagances. Everyone had to play – she dominated us like a the ring leader in a three ring circus. The kids, the adults, the rotating cast of romantic partners that might last a year, three or ten, and then rotate back out again. “Ding, ding, ding, we have a winner” was her victory song.

My paternal grandmother and her friend “from the old days” Mabel, turning over a plate on my mother’s dining room table to read the maker’s name, pretending to slip the silverware into her purse, reminiscing about stealing the light bulbs from the hallways of the apartment building she and my grandmother had been living in when they met. Generally eliciting shocked laughter from my sister and I, normally accustomed to adults behaving in more dignified ways.

Yeah, so anyway. By the end of the first half of the story we realize Munro has used these delicious, vital women to draw for us the silhouette of our narrator, but then in just a few brutal, heavy strokes, illuminates the narrator’s situation, her husband and other weaknesses.

This story is outrageously fun. Sad, in that sour way of regretting your own stupid wrongdoing when it’s already too late. Completely powerful. Absolutely fucking perfect.

Review: Margaret Laurence’s The Diviners

If you are currently reading anything other that Margaret Laurence’s The Diviners right now, I urge you to put down that book down. If you haven’t read The Diviners since highschool, since university, since the 1970s, 1980s, 1990s, really, I urge you.

I found myself holding my breath for long passages. Has any writer ever created as fully rendered a narrator as Morag Gunn? When distracted from my reading – which was almost never – it was inevitably to wonder if Morag Gunn is Margaret Laurence. Could any writer create so real a person on paper as Morag Gunn? Surely not. Maybe?

The rest of the characters are also very fully realized, but only exactly in the ways that Morag Gunn experiences them. Laurence is like a surgeon in the precision of the story she presents.

The Diviners is filled with an obsession with mythology vs fact. The early pages of the story deal primarily with Morag analyzing her memories, carefully trying to separate fact from fiction, from that which can be known to be neither.

I found the plight of young Pique to be particularly tender and heartbreaking. If she is burdened by the same mythological origins of Morag, she is carries an infinitely more heavy load in the scattered mythology of her Metis father. Here, no book pulled down from Christie’s shelf will supply her a clue, no visit to a distant county. Instead she takes her father’s songs, travels across the country, finds, perhaps, a home that can supply her more answers in an uncle’s hectic and remote sanctuary for metis kids in the foster system. Her creation must come if not from scratch, from her own research.

That’s all I can write at the moment. I’m still living with Morag and Pique, Christie and Jules in my head, and I’m going to enjoy that while it lasts.

Review: David Chariandy’s Brother

I grew up in the same neighbourhood as Chariandy, in fact, his family lived in the townhouse next door to my grandparents for many years. I remember his parents quite well, especially his mother, who everyone, my mother included, called “Mrs. Chariandy”, at all times, none of this Anne or Marnie or Arlene business of the rest of the moms in the neighbourhood.

I read Soucouyant, Chariandy’s first novel, just a year or so ago, and I liked it a great deal. Brother feels almost like it could have been the early part of that novel. The set up is the same, the non-existent father, the absent, but omnipresent brother and the richest character in both books, the mother.

I find the narrator in both books a bit frustrating. He seems powerless, witnessing the activities going on about him, not impacting much with his own actions. Both books have a mysterious female character that turns up slightly inexplicably to become the narrator’s sexual partner.

Chariandy’s work for me is at its best when he writes of the mother and her culture, especially whenever conjuring her past, or witnessing the evidence of her seemingly former, almost snuffed-out spirit, as both mothers are experiencing a dementia of one sort or another. This is what I loved best about Soucouyant, and it’s here in Brother, too. An understanding of, and great ability to express, the flavour of the culture his family comes from, without needing to rely on (or possessing, for that matter) a lot of direct experience of it. He’s able to capture so beautifully, what all children of immigrants must feel, an utterly true sense of a culture they’ve never actually lived in. It feels so authentic, and so bittersweet.

I wouldn’t normally have bothered to mention my first-hand knowledge of Chariandy, we didn’t know each other very well, but he’s writing about a neighbourhood I knew also, although perhaps at a time a little earlier than when this story was set. I suspect part of where he’s writing about is the area where he lived, but the ghetto aspect is coming from further west, where I had friends and spent time.

My memories of that place weren’t simply of newcomers who weren’t entirely welcomed into the greater society – although that was there – hardworking, poor, and dealing with injustice. There were a host of other problems that make up the bulk of what I remember most clearly. Alcoholic and drug-using parents. Kids as young as 12 locked out of the house overnight in cold weather when mom was “entertaining”. Drunk children under 12 in the parks and fields. Abuse, physical, and also sexual, that the girls I know didn’t talk about initially, but which became obvious when you started spending time in their homes. Parents who traded a kid’s drumkit for drugs. Violence wasn’t necessarily something that these young people chose, from what I saw. It was a protection from things that it was possible to agree might be worse.

Anyway, that’s it. I was a white kid living in a nice house and I got to return there at night, but I learned things about injustice and hard choices in some of these neighbourhoods, the townhouses on Manse Road, the buildings on Ling, Orton Park, that have never left me, and if I was prompted to write about them that’s what I would need to tell.

Nevertheless, I love seeing a place I know so well brought alive by another’s thoughtful eyes.

Buy Brother, by David Chariandy, here.

 

The Life of a Writer: Day Two

A few years ago, when I decided to write a novel for NaNoWriMo, I chose immediately to focus on fantasy because I figured that it might be easier (for me!) to not worry so much about a story that’s real to me than something fun and in a large way formulaic.

So even then I was feeling that writing “real” short stories and “real” novels, was a bit scary. But I am starting to have a habit in place, and I’m beginning to see how I can go about sticking to it. I’m about at least as smart and inherently talented as the world’s worst writer ever, probably, right?

So I sketched out a short story about the helicopter pilot the other day. It’s a trifle, a little bit of a thing. But, I can see ways to polish it, for sure make it better than what it is now. Make into the best little trifle it can be, I think maybe.

Last night I went to bed with a smile on my face because I really felt like I was getting it. Or, at least I can see the first step.

But, and but but but. Ideas, wow, honestly, I can’t even imagine how that works. Do you have to fast? Take drugs? To sustain a novel? Start bumping into walls and forgetting how to tie your shoelaces? Do they have breathing exercises that help?

But, honestly, I think the first step is hardest. To start the practice. Because you don’t have a hair of reason to believe you can do it yet. At least I faintly  can see what practice could look like for me.

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